The Start of Something New

14 11 2010

So we’ve made it through Christopher’s first 365 days ūüôā ¬†It seems so long ago yet it feels like only yesterday when I brought my little nugget home from the hospital. ¬†So many things friends told me turned out to be true, but I never could have known it until I’ve gone through it myself.

The first three months of his life were stressful. ¬†As I left the hospital all I kept thinking was, they’re letting me take him home?? ¬†I haven’t had nearly enough training to be a mother! ¬†They had changed all his diapers up to that point. ¬†I was petrified of this task. ¬†That umbilical chord! ¬† Keeping his little peeshy clean! ¬†The pressure – ¬†I don’t need my future daughter in law blaming me for messing up his plumbing! ¬†Then there was the fear of him suffocating in his sleep, the difficulties I had breastfeeding, the hormones racing through my body making my weepy and wacky. ¬†I really had no idea how crazy I was until those first three months were over. ¬†Case in point, I hosted Thanksgiving dinner…..at my house. ¬†With the good china. ¬† The stuff I hadn’t taken out of the boxes since I got married….over 6 years before! ¬†It took me hours to unpack and clean. ¬†What the hell was I thinking????

Then it was time to head back to work. ¬†That wasn’t nearly as hard as it could have been. ¬†Even though my hormones were out of wack – my little monkey has always been pretty even keeled. ¬†No tears from him…I was torn between being proud and being a little sad he didn’t realize I was leaving him. ¬†Of course the daycare where he goes also happens to employ my mother in law. ¬†She drives one of their buses. ¬†Christopher can’t ride with her until he’s 18 mos old…but she checks in on him every day. ¬†So I know they are gonna take good care of him or have one Italian/German Grandma to deal with. ¬†I suppose that made leaving him there that much easier to deal with.

The work-life balance has been going well. ¬†I have an incredibly understanding boss who lets me leave early when it’s my turn to pick the little monkey up from school. ¬†I’ve worked for her long enough she knows I’ll handle my business – whether I’m in the office or checking in on things from home. ¬†Of course there are times when I feel guilty walking out the door – I wonder what the people I work with think. ¬†But the reality is that Christopher is my top priority and I got to do what I got to do. ¬†Hopefully they are all as understanding as my boss is…

I still can’t believe his first year is over already. ¬†I remember when I told people about my 365 day project – most people smirked and said, “let’s see how long that lasts.” ¬†Everyone knows with your first kid you start off with the best of intentions but then reality sets in. ¬†Of course I do have a bit of a competitive streak in me and you know I couldn’t let the naysayers win! ¬†The project started out just as a photo album. ¬†I had been printing photos at home all the time so I knew I’d keep the album up to date. ¬†But then I bought a little photo printer that now sits in my living room. ¬†That made the project that much easier to do. ¬† And then somewhere along the way, probably in that three month period when my hormones were all screwy, I decided to start this blog. ¬†I’ve never done anything like this before and I was already weeks in to his life. ¬†The idea of going back to the beginning and getting caught up was a bit overwhelming. ¬†But it was winter and I was still on maternity leave so there you have it.

The blog has been helpful. ¬†I’ve tried keeping the baby book and the 1st year calender up to date with all the firsts in his life….but it hasn’t been easy. ¬†Thankfully I’ve been able to use the blog as a reference when I needed to try to remember when the first tooth came or when he started sitting up or taking steps. ¬†That’s why I can’t stop the blog just because his first 365 days are over. ¬†Years from now it will be great for us both to have this to go back to and reminisce.

At one point I considered ending this blog and just starting a new one. ¬†But I figured just because I started this as a 365 project and the intent was to post a picture a day…..I did do that for his first year but now it’s just more about the years in his life. ¬†I’ll use this space to keep record of his milestones and my thoughts and feelings along the way.

Before I start anew, I figured I’d recap his first year and share with you some of my favorite pics from the blog. ¬†First off my little monkey currently weighs 25lbs 12oz (90%) and is 30 3/4″ tall (75-90%). ¬†Dr. Gerry says he basically looks like an 18mos old baby. ¬†Heaven help me what he’ll weigh at 18mos! ¬†I can barely carry him now ūüôā ¬†And yes, he’s wearing clothes designated 18mos. ¬†He’s got a crazy head of hair – a little Donald Trump, a little Justin Beiber – I told you, crazy. ¬†He’s got 5 teeth, two on the bottom, three on top. ¬†And he really likes to use them. ¬†I’m surprised all my clothes don’t have holes in the shoulder as he bites mine all the time now. ¬†He walks great. ¬†He’s eating regular food – which sucks a little cause I can’t cook and other then breakfast, feeding him meals is now the new stress in my life! ¬† That and the night terrors he seems to suffer from almost every night. ¬†Listening to him cry while he sleeps has to be one of the most awful things I’ve ever heard and I pray he outgrows this phase soon. ¬†He’s a big flirt. ¬†There isn’t a check-out lady from here to Westbury that has not been taken in by his charms.

Well that’s my monkey in a nutshell. ¬†Now lets recap my fave pics from his first year:

look at my two handsome men….I’m a lucky woman (and get a load of Christopher’s feet – they’re huge!!)

I miss his dark spiky hair – look at how cute he is.

my little burrito ūüôā ¬†this might be my favorite pic of him to date

do I need to say why I love this pic??? ¬†look at it….

He’s about 8mos old here

love his smile

someday he’s gonna hate me for this one…..

and how cannot I not include his 1st birthday photo