Well I knew that was going to happen…..

21 11 2010

Now that the pressure is off on the 365 day project I knew I’d take forever to update this thing.  Whenever I’ve tried keeping a journal I either gave up or I only wrote in it once a month.  Don’t know why I thought this would be different.  Well, actually I do.  I thought since I was doing it for Christopher I’d be more motivated.  I kept a written journal during my pregnancy, kept another written one during his first year, did the baby book, the 1st year calendar and this blog.  I know, seems like overkill right?  But having lost my mother at the age of 5, I know what it’s like to wish I had those things to look back on and see what she was thinking since she’s not here to tell me herself.  Now of course I plan on sticking around for a really long time so it shouldn’t be an issue – but I can’t help myself!  Gonna try to be better about writing this thing.  (and really God – please keep me here for a nice long time please)

Oddly enough the thing I haven’t stopped doing is taking a picture of him everyday.  Even if it’s just him playing in his play yard.  I have loved looking back and seeing how significant the changes are in his growth.  And these days with a digital camera it’s so easy to do!

The latest thing we’re dealing with are night terrors.  I hate it.  The monkey cries almost every night now.  Sometimes he just whimpers a few times and goes back to sleep.  Other times it’s blood curdling cries followed by him sitting up staring in to space.  I can’t tell if he’s awake or not – the books say to leave them alone, they’ll work through it and go back to sleep and not even remember the incident.  I’ve tried to do that – but really how can you????  He won’t stop crying and he tries getting up, but he’s half asleep so he falls into the side of the crib.  It’s so awful.  Of course I pick him up and he stops instantly.  But when I try putting him back down he starts crying again.  The doctor says it’s normal.  She said from her experience kids that grind their teeth or don’t nap enough during the day tend to experience this more.  When I’m holding him I think I can hear him grinding his teeth – but how do you stop that?  I try putting his binky in his mouth but when he’s that upset he just spits it out.  I’d say on the weekend the nap thing could be the issue – but he cries during the week and he gets plenty of nap time at school.  It’s only me that can’t get him to go down….unless I’m driving!   So now I take hour drives to no where when he does that just so he’ll get some sleep.  I thinking gas might be an issue too.  Sometimes I check the monitor before going in his room to see if he’ll settle in – and if he sits up then I go in.  And a lot of the time if it progresses to my picking him up, he’ll be crying, fart, then stop.   I keep telling myself to add the gripe water to his last bottle of the day but I always forget.  The last few nights I haven’t even gotten him in his crib – he’s been stuffy and it makes it hard to breathe so unless I’m cuddled next to him he’d just cry and cry.  But tonite he went down ok and keeping fingers crossed he’ll stay that way until tomorrow a.m……

This is one of the outfits Christopher got for his birthday.  I love it – he’s totally ready for fall 🙂

my friend Susan and I got together so I could do Christmas pics of her daughter Jordan and she’d help me with taking Christopher’s.  Jordan got in on the action and was taking pictures for me – I actually think I’m using one of the pics she took!

I had gone to this park in Garden City with my friend Anita once – it’s near her new house.  While I was out shopping the other day Christopher was a little restless so I figured I’d bring him to the park to burn off some energy.  Of course I didn’t realize the park is only for GC resident’s and their guests…..was hoping the whole time I was there the GC cops or better yet, some insane GC folk weren’t going to demand to see my driver’s license!!

speaking of Anita – monkey wants to thank you for the fridge magnets – he’s been having lots of fun with them.

and I finally got around to hiring my neighbor’s kid Megan to come over and be a mother’s helper.  She played with Christopher while I got some housework done.  Really need to do that more often!

yup – that’s Cap’t Adorable blowing on a duck call….he’s made daddy so proud

The Start of Something New

14 11 2010

So we’ve made it through Christopher’s first 365 days 🙂  It seems so long ago yet it feels like only yesterday when I brought my little nugget home from the hospital.  So many things friends told me turned out to be true, but I never could have known it until I’ve gone through it myself.

The first three months of his life were stressful.  As I left the hospital all I kept thinking was, they’re letting me take him home??  I haven’t had nearly enough training to be a mother!  They had changed all his diapers up to that point.  I was petrified of this task.  That umbilical chord!   Keeping his little peeshy clean!  The pressure –  I don’t need my future daughter in law blaming me for messing up his plumbing!  Then there was the fear of him suffocating in his sleep, the difficulties I had breastfeeding, the hormones racing through my body making my weepy and wacky.  I really had no idea how crazy I was until those first three months were over.  Case in point, I hosted Thanksgiving dinner…..at my house.  With the good china.   The stuff I hadn’t taken out of the boxes since I got married….over 6 years before!  It took me hours to unpack and clean.  What the hell was I thinking????

Then it was time to head back to work.  That wasn’t nearly as hard as it could have been.  Even though my hormones were out of wack – my little monkey has always been pretty even keeled.  No tears from him…I was torn between being proud and being a little sad he didn’t realize I was leaving him.  Of course the daycare where he goes also happens to employ my mother in law.  She drives one of their buses.  Christopher can’t ride with her until he’s 18 mos old…but she checks in on him every day.  So I know they are gonna take good care of him or have one Italian/German Grandma to deal with.  I suppose that made leaving him there that much easier to deal with.

The work-life balance has been going well.  I have an incredibly understanding boss who lets me leave early when it’s my turn to pick the little monkey up from school.  I’ve worked for her long enough she knows I’ll handle my business – whether I’m in the office or checking in on things from home.  Of course there are times when I feel guilty walking out the door – I wonder what the people I work with think.  But the reality is that Christopher is my top priority and I got to do what I got to do.  Hopefully they are all as understanding as my boss is…

I still can’t believe his first year is over already.  I remember when I told people about my 365 day project – most people smirked and said, “let’s see how long that lasts.”  Everyone knows with your first kid you start off with the best of intentions but then reality sets in.  Of course I do have a bit of a competitive streak in me and you know I couldn’t let the naysayers win!  The project started out just as a photo album.  I had been printing photos at home all the time so I knew I’d keep the album up to date.  But then I bought a little photo printer that now sits in my living room.  That made the project that much easier to do.   And then somewhere along the way, probably in that three month period when my hormones were all screwy, I decided to start this blog.  I’ve never done anything like this before and I was already weeks in to his life.  The idea of going back to the beginning and getting caught up was a bit overwhelming.  But it was winter and I was still on maternity leave so there you have it.

The blog has been helpful.  I’ve tried keeping the baby book and the 1st year calender up to date with all the firsts in his life….but it hasn’t been easy.  Thankfully I’ve been able to use the blog as a reference when I needed to try to remember when the first tooth came or when he started sitting up or taking steps.  That’s why I can’t stop the blog just because his first 365 days are over.  Years from now it will be great for us both to have this to go back to and reminisce.

At one point I considered ending this blog and just starting a new one.  But I figured just because I started this as a 365 project and the intent was to post a picture a day…..I did do that for his first year but now it’s just more about the years in his life.  I’ll use this space to keep record of his milestones and my thoughts and feelings along the way.

Before I start anew, I figured I’d recap his first year and share with you some of my favorite pics from the blog.  First off my little monkey currently weighs 25lbs 12oz (90%) and is 30 3/4″ tall (75-90%).  Dr. Gerry says he basically looks like an 18mos old baby.  Heaven help me what he’ll weigh at 18mos!  I can barely carry him now 🙂  And yes, he’s wearing clothes designated 18mos.  He’s got a crazy head of hair – a little Donald Trump, a little Justin Beiber – I told you, crazy.  He’s got 5 teeth, two on the bottom, three on top.  And he really likes to use them.  I’m surprised all my clothes don’t have holes in the shoulder as he bites mine all the time now.  He walks great.  He’s eating regular food – which sucks a little cause I can’t cook and other then breakfast, feeding him meals is now the new stress in my life!   That and the night terrors he seems to suffer from almost every night.  Listening to him cry while he sleeps has to be one of the most awful things I’ve ever heard and I pray he outgrows this phase soon.  He’s a big flirt.  There isn’t a check-out lady from here to Westbury that has not been taken in by his charms.

Well that’s my monkey in a nutshell.  Now lets recap my fave pics from his first year:

look at my two handsome men….I’m a lucky woman (and get a load of Christopher’s feet – they’re huge!!)

I miss his dark spiky hair – look at how cute he is.

my little burrito 🙂  this might be my favorite pic of him to date

do I need to say why I love this pic???  look at it….

He’s about 8mos old here

love his smile

someday he’s gonna hate me for this one…..

and how cannot I not include his 1st birthday photo


7 11 2010

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to meeeeeeeeee…..Happy Birthday to me 🙂

That’s right. Today is my birthday.  I am finally 1 years old.  Mommy and Daddy had a big party planned for me – it’s sesame street themed – cause I love watching Sesame Street in the morning before school.  I like to watch Elmo and Murray and Abby and Big Bird.

That’s me with the giant Elmo balloon.  My cousin Isabella really loved playing with him, see….

Aunt Victoria and Aunt Gen did paintings on everyone – they were really good at it.  Here’s Meghan, my neighbor from across the street, she got Elmo and Cookie on her hands.


Here is Grandma Angie with the cake she made for me.

And here are the cupcakes mommy made…

There will be more pictures – but this is all mommy had time to post for now 🙂  Thanks everybody for hanging out with me this last year.  Mommy says she’s gonna keep my blog going so you can still see how I’m growing.  There might be some changes though.  Instead of posting a picture for every day she’ll probably do it a little differently.  And she’s probably going to take over writing duties.  I’ve got so many things to do, you know – tearing every book of my bookshelf, playing with my toys, growing teeth, eating puffs – it’s hard to keep up my blog for every day of the year.  So like I said, it will be different but it’s still going to be here so make sure you check in from time to time.

Day 365!!!!!

7 11 2010

Technically today is the 365th day – can you believe it??  We’ve been hanging out together for a whole year.  Do you remember what I looked like on day 1(https://365daysofchristopher.wordpress.com/2010/01/17/day-1/) – that seems like so long ago!  I’m a big boy now.  I can walk and I can talk, well I can talk a little.  I have 5 teeth.  I eat regular food.  I love to play.  I like to dance.  Tomorrow is my birthday and I am going to be 1 years old 🙂  Mommy and Daddy are so excited.  They have a birthday party planned and lots of friends and family are coming to celebrate with me.

Aunt Victoria came down to stay with us and to help mommy out with all the last minute things to do.  Mommy is soooo glad she’s here.  She said she really needed Aunt Victoria’s help.  I was really happy to have her to play with.

Day 364

7 11 2010

I’m just sitting here in the kitchen, eating my graham crackers.  They are so yummy.   See that animal on my onesie?  That’s a bull.  Mommy says I’m “strong like bull.”  It also looks a little like the tattoo daddy has on his arm.  He’s “strong like bull too”!!

Day 363

4 11 2010

Yeah Yeah – I know, Halloween is over.  But my shirt glows in the dark!  That is so cool.  I’m gonna wear this until I outgrow it.  Which probably won’t be much longer.

Day 362

4 11 2010

Just hanging out waiting for mommy to finish getting all my stuff ready for school.  She’d probably get it done faster if she wasn’t taking my picture all the time!!

Day 361

4 11 2010

Mommy got a break from changing my diaper!  It was daddy’s turn.  Mommy says she needs to watch how daddy does it because I don’t squirmle for him nearly as much as I do for her 🙂  That’s cause mommy is a softy and lets me get away with squirmiling.

Day 360

4 11 2010

This is the outfit I got from Barbara and Rich back when I was only 57 days old 🙂  It was sooooooo big then – but it fits me pretty good now!  Someday I want to go to a hockey game.  Who knows, maybe I’ll even learn to play hockey someday.